Hello from the UAE!

[Nitrex]

Hello

I am 26 years old, been living in UAE my whole life, I am Arabian but also half American since my mom is born in Texas.

I left Islam about a year and a half and I consider my self a scientific Atheist.

To keep things short, I was keen and interested in the scientific world and how things worked, I loved science at a very young age and at the age of 5 I questioned the world around me, I looked out the balcony of the apartment I was living in and saw builders building a building, and I asked my self, if we made the buildings then who made the sky, land and the oceans, I asked my parents that question and the answer I got was God or Allah. I grew up in a Muslim family, being the eldest brother and I was with my faith for a very long time. I started to lose faith slowly when I slowly opened up about my sexual orientation, I am a bisexual but mostly attracted to the same sex, and I fell in love with a guy, and this kind of took me off course in my faith because I considered my self an angel because I never made the big sins as they call it. So imagine hearing everyday from people that being gay will lead you to go to hell and hearing the stories of gay people being punished was not only freighting but also hurtful and I had to connect with more people like me. Of course all this was yet not enough to let me let go of my faith because of the fear of the hell fire, I educated my self more into science, as soon as I started reading about Evolution and the probability of a miracle and coincidences happening in life, it all struck me and made me doubt the possibility of ever being an intelligent designer or creator, slowly I left that box and I am finally living the life the way I wanted to, and I finally understood the brainwashing that most believers go through because of the early childhood that all children are forced to believe. Now everything makes perfect sense to me and now I understand things even better, especially after reading psychology of the human brain and even understanding why some religious people sin, it is because it is our human nature, so if an intelligent designer made us to sin, why would he make such contradictions ? Besides why would he be against homosexual and against people born with certain disorders such as schizophrenia and people who are sociopaths/psychopaths. It just means we are born with nature and there is no intelligent designer , otherwise he doesn't exist or he is the most imperfect creator, but since religion considered him perfect then therefore he does not simply exist, this was my conclusion and this freed me from a lot of stress.

After leaving my religion my life headed with more positivity, I started losing lots of weight and taking care of my body, eating the right foods.

By the way, I eat everything, but when it comes to meats, I eat certain types of meats like chicken, beef and fish and not everything, since I have not been raised to eat certain meats I find it disgusting to try something new unless its a vegetable I wouldn't mind.

Thank you for reading my long story, couldn't be any shorter then this.

[TheVeganAtheist]

Hi Nitrex, welcome to the forum. Thanks for sharing your story.