Confusing Feelings, Need Help

General philosophy message board for Discussion and debate on other philosophical issues not directly related to veganism. Metaphysics, religion, theist vs. atheist debates, politics, general science discussion, etc.
Post Reply
JadeSpeedster17
Newbie
Posts: 40
Joined: Tue Jul 19, 2016 1:02 pm

Confusing Feelings, Need Help

Post by JadeSpeedster17 »

I've been just so confused in this relationship had. To out line it, I said yes... when I possible should have said no.

The guy I was dating, I only knew him for 2 months, and went out for 2 weeks. Short yes, but let me list my reasons.
I am 18 years on, just started collage, and I am having trouble with grades.
Another thing to point out is that I am still very confused about my sexuality, and mostly guys turn me off. I feel nothing for them, yes I am a girl.
To add onto that, I had my doubts about the relationship when it came to him. :?

He is 26, 8 years apart from me.
Been in college longer then I have.
Just got over a break up 2 weeks before asking me.
He's kind of clingy, ex: Kissed after the second date like full on make out runnign hands through hair. Touching my stomach, rubbing it, and sometimes my waist line. After the second date, nibbling my ear, kissing my neck, ear, cheek, forehead, and sniffing my hair. Likes to hug a lot, not that I mind, but it went on longer then normal aka 1 minuet and I had class to get to. We did nuzzle noses, as i was okay with that, but he seemed to keep trying to kiss my lips for making out. I like short and brief first few days, not feeling his teeth on mine.
Tried to say he was going at my own pace, I gave him the okay to kiss no make out session. I was too confused to stop him, as I had never done it, but it felt uncomfortable each time.
Seemed he always wanted to go out to eat at some place when I had a break. Again it was hard to say no to him, he wasn't demanding, but I often didn't feel comfortable with him.
When saying 'I love you' it never felt right, I said it to make him feel better, because he wouldn't stop saying it after our first date! And I had another date that night, two guys in one day. But even with the other I felt nothing, I thought I did with this guy but as I read this it sounds like I was delusional.
He always wanted me to hang out with him, when I told him I like my space. Even though he said he didn't want much of my time, it felt like he was trying to get it.
When I called it off before it got farther, he kept saying he's 'going to miss that' or 'you'll make someone happy' it felt uncomfortable. Like he was guilt tripping me, but told me not to feel guilty. Even though I told him before he even asked me out 'I think I am a lesbian.'.
And the final thing was that he wanted me to be in contact, always asking me to be on facebook, and I never use facebook anymore. And my phone I never have on my person at home as home is my wind down time. I'd find 2 to 3 texts, and 1 or 2 call attempts.

Yet I keep feeling guilty.... I think, I feel like I know I did the right thing. But how do I get over the guilt with the over whelming amount of evidence? :?:
User avatar
brimstoneSalad
neither stone nor salad
Posts: 10370
Joined: Wed May 28, 2014 9:20 am
Diet: Vegan

Re: Confusing Feelings, Need Help

Post by brimstoneSalad »

You were probably right to end it. Try going out with a lady to come to terms with your feelings better; it may give you more perspective.
User avatar
EquALLity
I am God
Posts: 3022
Joined: Thu Jul 10, 2014 11:31 am
Diet: Vegan
Location: United States of Canada

Re: Confusing Feelings, Need Help

Post by EquALLity »

I don't understand why you feel guilty. It just wasn't working for you, that's ok. That doesn't mean either of you did something wrong.

Yeah, I think you should try going out with a woman if you think you're a lesbian or even just generally not straight (you could be bisexual etc.). :)

Btw, how's life without living w your crazy parents? ;D :P
"I am not a Marxist." -Karl Marx
JadeSpeedster17
Newbie
Posts: 40
Joined: Tue Jul 19, 2016 1:02 pm

Re: Confusing Feelings, Need Help

Post by JadeSpeedster17 »

Thanks, just very confused as he tried guilt tripping me and I just feel bad that he spent money on me... Even though I tell myself it's not my fault.

More crazy Bill Clinton stuff from fox news. How I should vote for Trump and all that shit. :rolls eyes:
User avatar
PsYcHo
Master of the Forum
Posts: 1166
Joined: Tue Jan 26, 2016 10:24 pm
Diet: Pescetarian

Re: Confusing Feelings, Need Help

Post by PsYcHo »

The thing about relationships I've noticed is that it has to work for both persons, otherwise it is doomed to fail. Seems obvious, but sometimes one partner will stay around out of guilt, and that is bad for both of you. (I did this exact thing once.) If you are not happy, you are only prolonging the inevitable, and that's not fair to either person.

As far as sexuality, if you think you might like women, chances are you will. If not, you can always switch sides! ;) (My strictly gay friends called me a traitor when I started dating a woman, but the important thing was I was happy in the relationship.) Just don't get "guilted" into staying in a relationship that you are not happy with. You're still young, so understand lasting relationships don't get easier over time. If it is a new relationship and you aren't happy, it is very doubtful it will improve with time. Best of luck.
Alcohol may have been a factor.

Taxation is theft.
User avatar
EquALLity
I am God
Posts: 3022
Joined: Thu Jul 10, 2014 11:31 am
Diet: Vegan
Location: United States of Canada

Re: Confusing Feelings, Need Help

Post by EquALLity »

^It's definitely not your fault.
Just because he spends money on you doesn't mean he can expect your relationship to last forever. o_O That's really nice of him to do, but it's not like you forced him to do that.

People spend money on each other in relationships, but everyone knows that relationships don't necessarily last forever... It's not like he had a reason to expect it to last forever.
I hope that's helpful. :)

Yeah, Fox News is basically a propaganda outlet for the republican party. It's not a real news station. :P
"I am not a Marxist." -Karl Marx
Post Reply